On top of this I had no intention or even an inkling of wanting to work. Projects just sat. My own personal remodel just sat costing me thousands a month in holding fees. Did I care? No I didn’t give two shits. Did I look for other projects to purchase? No once again it meant very little to me. Now luckily I am in a position that I can sit back and relax if I want to and not worry too much about finances. This can’t go on forever but it did afford me the luxury of taking my time and figuring things out.
I never did make a grand gesture. I never even attempted to win her back beyond my first few initial tries. We almost got back together at one point but I somehow blew it again and she was gone forever. It’s kind of funny how your life works out. I mean why didn’t I make some last stand for her? Thinking back what if I did? Would she have came back? Did she want me to do this? Maybe deep down she did. It will be interesting to one day talk with her and ask her this question. Since our last conversation that I was extremely harsh with her we haven’t spoken one word. I haven’t even went back to visit her myspace page. She actually set me free that day and without that harshness I would have had an even harder time walking away. For this I definitely thank her for her unintentional action. Even to this day I sometimes think about her. I compare her to every girl I have met so far. No girl has even come close to her. Now maybe I am a little bias but ohh well I have every right to be.
So how did I cope with all of this? As crazy as it sounds I read. Anything I could find relating to the community I would devour. I would spend hours and hours sitting in front of my computer just reading. I think I can recall a few days and nights where I did little of anything else. I just thank the position I was in that allowed me to do this. Now sure I would have gotten through it no matter what but man reading some people’s blogs, various websites, and books really helped. I didn’t want to move on from her but I knew this was the only way I would. I had to evolve into someone who could easily meet women. On top of this my past success with women has been odd. Sure I have always gotten women when I wanted. The odd thing is most of the time I had little desire. I mean if one fell into my lap great I would run with it. But me actually approaching and meeting them meant work. This was something I mostly didn’t do. All that had to change. I had to start being proactive in the pursuit of women.
My life of women can be categorized into 3 areas:
When I was 18 I shared an apartment with a friend. Now most guys that age don’t have their own place. So naturally girls and guys alike were drawn to this place. Little did I know at the time but this definitely made us appealing. I am almost certain every night of the week people were at our place. This made it very easy to attract and meet women. So at this point in my life I would consider myself successful with women. After this period I moved out and had a LTR for at least the next 3-4 years.
After this period of time I sat on the sidelines for at least the next couple years. I guess I just had little interest. I mean sure I wanted to meet women I just didn’t do anything about it. I was more interested in making money and finishing school.
The next period was a time in which I was running a company in another city. I was bored and didn’t know anyone. At times I would go out with some guys I met and meet women. Something changed in me. All the sudden I did have that desire again and I did meet women. Looking back on my game then it was decent but overall pretty much sucked. I can see some dickheadedness even back then but I can see that I was a bitch at times. But you know what really worked. Being the dick that said I have no interest in a girlfriend. I almost think this seeps from you or shows up in some way. Females either consciously or subconsciously pick up on this and it turns them on. It’s almost the same as how the girl wants to tame the bad boy. In the same way she wants to make you her boyfriend and this is appealing to her. Nowadays if it is brought up in any manner I just straight up tell the girls hey I am in no mental state to be in a relationship.
After that period I sold the business and in a latter part started my latest 3 year relationship.
So here we are at the next period. This is the period where I can see some extreme evolution and progression. My game while not great is light years beyond any time in the past and the results speak for themselves. Overall I am a total dick. I mean on day 2’s and such I am much nicer but out at the bars I am not as nice. In addition to this when I am with a girl in a sexual nature or even before I am pretty forward. I will say crazy shit to these girls and for whatever reason they like it. Now maybe they are all just freaks but I doubt it. I almost think they get into a certain state and this just takes it to the extreme. It is almost as if I can get them to do anything. I won’t go into the shit I tell them but if you really want to know ask.
The true beauty of all of this is I see everything differently now. I walk around and pick up on the social interactions of every room. I make eye contact with everyone who is around me. I notice things I never would have in the past. It’s as if my eyes are open for the first time. Hopefully I will learn enough things to meet my future wife. While I have no intentions of this happening in the extreme near future I do hope it happens. I would like to settle down at some point and raise a family.
I want to point out something to finish this off. No matter how much you read about something if you don’t apply it you really don’t know anything about it. If you haven’t figured it out I invest in real estate. Just like this community there are sites everywhere with thousands of people talking about real estate. Of all these people who view and post on these sites maybe 1% ever actually invest in real estate. Maybe even less than that number. People overload themselves with information and never pull the trigger. So I just want to say hey go read some stuff. Read a little more. Then make up your mind and pull the trigger. Go out and try some sets. Who cares if you get blown out at least you tried. I promise you opening is the hardest part and once you master it things will come together. If you never open you will never close.
