My brain is so occupied with thought right now. I am sitting here thinking back on the success I have had so far since I joined the community. I am trying to figure out how I built attraction. How did I open. How did I escalate. What was our conversation like. All of this is racing through my head. I mean even up to very recent I have had success. But all of the sudden I feel like I have absolutely zero talent.

I see some of the other guys in the field. I observe what they do to have success. The truth is I am not sure many are having the kind of success I am. I am not trying to toot my own horn by any means. I think when it comes down to it there are some many out there that just smoke me. In fact I am calling myself out right now. I pretty much suck ass at this.

I really shouldn’t even be rambling on right now. I am so freaking tired and weak. I have maybe taken in 1200 calories today. I made the mistake of mixing cough medicine with alcohol and let’s just say my entire day has been ruined. I feel like a train wreck. I wish I could just fall asleep and start over tomorrow. I have tried so many times today and nothing. I feel asleep for a few minutes and bam my phone rings. I barely slept at all last night. Hell I even woke up at 5 am and started writing crap.

Here is the real reason I am writing this. This is my open declaration to myself to revamp my game. You know how when Tiger Woods was on top and he decided to completely redo his swing? People thought he was crazy. But now he is just about unbeatable. I guess that is my best analogy I can come up with. I am no where near his level by any means but I want to change my game. Even as I am writing this my brain is questioning my philosophy on this matter.

Here are two texts I got in the last 24 hours.

Back story: This girl was a little too blah for me in bed. She also got super clingy so I started blowing her off. She has to this day not given it up. She has sent other texts to me like let’s go to the sex shop and buy toys blah blah.

HBNYEGirl: Alright so you and I have something to resolve.  I’m not ok w/goin down as the sexy chick that didn’t give it up in bed. It still bugs me. We’re gonna have to hook up one last time so I can do my thing and do what I should have just done in the first place. But I’m not cool letting my rep go down like that.

NBSNL: I will beat you at something and I think it might be pool sorry. Then we are going to go back to your place and I am going to have my way with you.

She then goes on to say that she doesn’t want to bet money this time but she will bet: If I win I can do whatever I want sexually with her. And she means anything. I love freaks.

This is just the tip of the iceberg. I have not slept alone in…in I can’t even remember the last time. Either my bed has been occupied or I have been at someone else’s house. Since I feel like shit I have already blown off invitations for this evening. This will be the first time in forever. So why in the world do I want to change something that is clearly working?

Here is why. I randomly open a lot of sets if I am feeling good. I run a weird game depending on the bar we are at. If it is a smaller place I have no problem posting up with a wing and just letting the girls come to us. Anything within proximity gets opened with a situational opener. I have no problem with this at all and I am not going to change this aspect of my game. What I am going to change is where I go from here. When I first got into this I was actually pretty good at keeping a conversation going. As of late it just seems like I can’t spit two words. I know this isn’t the truth but it just feels like it right now. I want to get good at carrying on a lengthy conversation with these girls. The reason is I think I lose so many potentially good sets because I let the conversation die down really quick. I mean you have the balls to open. It opens wide open and then umm you sit there like a tool and let it fall apart. That just seems so counter productive.

I have enough girls in my arsenal right now that I shouldn’t be so worried about getting new ones. I mean it is fun the chase and all of getting a girl. I also want to keep my numbers for the year going so my usual wing doesn’t out pace me. I think for now however in the long run this is far more important. I am just so sick of not being able to instantly go into some good conversation. Lately I have just been sticking really bad it seems. I think if I can work this kink out some crazy number like 6-10 in one month is not out of the question.

Now I have to figure out how to get good at talking to these women again. I used to be pretty damn good at it. I have ran some decent sets lately but so many of the others are just bugging the hell out of me. It is almost as if my brain isn’t working. Hell I need a vacation. A vacation really from everything. Maybe I should just bury myself in work again and take my mind off this for a while. LMAO just got a third booty call of the evening while writing this. Geeze this is so hard to get away from. Fuck \lsjdfljsd

HB: Promise me you will do you know what in my mouth.

Umm yah my bed will be occupied this evening yet again.

Here we are at it again. This is my first Wednesday out sarging. I am mainly once again going so p4nzer has a wing. I know that when I started I was jonezing to go out all the time. I only had one wing at the time so I was always limited to one or two nights out a week. So we all want to head up to Candleroom in uptown. You have to be on the list but JP pull some strings and gets us a way in. He heads up there first and says it is dead. Hrmm alright that sucks but there is another bar that is suppose to be good called Corner Bar.

We head over there and yes it is very good. There is a great crowd and some hot women in this place. I love little bars like this. I like to just post up and have the women come to me. Basically everyone likes to walk around and they all make their way past you. I love to use situational openers unless of course they open me.

The night is going extremely good for me in the beginning. I neg a girl for cutting in line at the bar in front of two other girls. One of the other girls comes up to me and thanks me and gives me kino. I then turn to the HBcutter and tell her to be grab me a water which she does. She then leaves and I start talking to the other two girls. One of them is very into the conversation. I grab her phone out of her hand and she just lets me take it. It is an iphone and she is acting like it’s no big deal I can do whatever I want with it. It’s actually very funny. Anyways she goes on to tell me how she just wrecked her brand new range rover. I DLV myself here by saying ohh wow that is nice I drive a 1974 pinto station wagon. It’s red with rust and can go about 64 mph. I have used this exact same line for about 11 years now and it always works. This girl is flustered and not my type so I eject.

At some point after this some hottie walks by our group. She grabs my friends arm and tells him. Tell your friend he is grrrrr. Like a tiger sound or something. As she is saying this I shoot her a big smile and she returns it while keeping eye contact. I never saw the girl again though during the night. How odd.

I later hear both of the guys there have been getting blown out. I also had gotten blown out. As I was walking past I tell two girls they are in the way blocking everyone and need to move. They get so freaking pissed at this comment. I guess my body language was bad or something. I continue to neg the shit out of them and they eventually ask me to leave. Yes that is my worst blow out ever. It’s funny too these girls were ugly as fuck I was just trying to have a good time.

At this point we are all ready to go. We head up to Sherlock’s which blows. I give HBIsrael a call. She is open to me coming over even though I haven’t talked to her in like 2 weeks. I let the guys know I am leaving and head over there. I get to her place and she gives me some shit for not talking to her in so long. After this though she is open to me and we start making out. She is kissing a lot different for some reason though. Maybe someone has given her some lessons or something.

I tell her we need to go to bed and we head to her room. From here we proceed to having a good time. Probably the best sex we have had together. I have had many opportunities in the past month to get the 2 girls in 24 hours out of the way. Finally tonight it has happened. I must say it really isn’t a big deal. I think it would be a bigger deal if you did one at noon and the other at 5 or something. These were spaced almost 24 hours apart. Ohh well now on to the next quest of 3 girls in 24 hours.

So I am laying in HBGamergirls bed this morning. She has already left for a trip to San Fransisco. Damn I slept good. I took some of her cough medicine which knocked me out. Around 10:30 AM HBSNL texts me and wants to go grab some drinks this evening. I know I will be hanging out with p4nzer this evening so having a female pivot will be good. I agree and we start making plans for the night.

It turns out we are going to hit up Republic for the night. P4nzer and I arrive a little early and I can tell this is a pretty good place. It is a little small but it has plenty of places to isolate. There are a couple wrap around couches in the main room. There is also a heated patio which is really nice. The mixture of cool air and heat coming down felt really good.

We head to the bar and grab a drink. There is a 4 set of HB’s to my right that I would usually open with something very casual. For some reason I don’t. Hrmm odd that isn’t a good way to start the evening. Especially since one of them eyed me down. Lesson you can’t close what you don’t open. DUH. Alright so I get my drink and hang back behind the bar watching the television. There is a fight that is about to happen one that I have interest in. Kimbo this huge MMA fighter is about to fight. He has some crazy internet fights you can download. They are pretty entertaining. This one is televised and might actually be a real fight. It turns out to be a complete dud and ends in like 30 seconds. Ohh well.

P4nzer opens a guy in a 4set. 3 guys one HB. The girl is pretty sexy looking and sorta my type. She is definitely not with any of the guys and I will look at her every once in a while. She is returning very good eye contact but nothing comes of it. I give p4nzer props though for opening the guy. That plays a big part in the game. While he didn’t open the rest of the group I think opening everyone guys and girls a like is important.

After this we head out to the patio and hang back for a little while. P4nzer is scoping the place out and finds a 3 set of HB’s. He decides to go open them and I will come wing for him after a little while. I hang back and watch the interaction. It seems to be going so-so. It is a little hard to control 3 women but he does a good job. Two start texting and I am about to go wing but I decide not to for some reason. Next thing you know the two girls come back in and get involved in the conversation. After a few more minutes the two girls texting actually go sit down leaving one of the girls with him. I think he ran this set pretty well unfortunately it turns out the girl who stayed was married.

After this HBSNL arrives with her friend HBSteph and a guy friend. The guy is pretty cool and opens up very well. We head up to the bar and grab some drinks then head back outside and stand at a table. I am showing HBSNL very little interest. This annoys her greatly and she starts questioning why I am not paying her much attention. Every once in a while a guy will come open her and she will blow them out.

A while in I get a text saying CJ and Sinn are here. It turns out they are right behind me. I walk up and introduce myself to them. They seem to be pretty cool guys. I don’t want to annoy them since they are there for one reason. After a small chit chat I go back to my group. At some point a Super HB walks by with her date. She is behind him and just eyeing me down. I of course hold eye contact, don’t say a word and as she walks by grabs my arm. I never get a chance to open her later but that would have been interesting.

After a while a 4 set arrives and sets up shop right behind us. I am in a friendly mood and open one of the girls. She is very receptive but I am just being friendly and go back to HBSNL. It turns out p4nzer later goes up this same girl and runs some extremely good game on her. He ends up with his first number close. Well done.

HBSNL’s friends at some point leave without even saying goodbye. I think her guy friend is a little pissed. He can’t figure out why she will sleep with me but not his best friend who I guess she likes. I don’t know either and I don’t care. We end up leaving and head back to my place. She ends up staying the night.

While I have been going out Monday night lately I have never sarged Tuesday or Wednesday nights. I have a new wing that is very new to the game. I really want to see this guy succeed. I can tell if he practices he will be very good. I also know how much it sucks to want to go out and there is no one who will go with you. Plus let’s face it I want to go out as well and meet some beautiful women.

So Monday night rolls around. I really don’t want to go out tonight. Then like clockwork my phone starts blowing up. I know people are going to Finn and a new wing p4nzer wants to go to Martini Ranch in uptown. Well I am all about going to new places plus uptown girls are usually hotter for some reason. P4nzer and JP roll up and we all go inside. I can tell right away the place is going to be pretty good. Besides all of the tables there is a pretty good bar area. I love when there is a bar that gets kind of crowded. I just open well in these situations. We immediately walk up to the bar to order a drink. There is a seated 3 set at the bar. P4nzer opens with something that gets him blown out. Since he was blown out I decided to take over. One of the girls was very receptive. I later reopened her with will you be a doll and order me a drink. So far I have field tested this twice and it has worked both times. She orders me my drink and we chat for a bit.

From here everything seems to go pretty slow. I have a good time just hanging with these guys but that is not our mission. I really want to see p4nzer succeed and the only way for that to happen is he has to approach. We were standing next to an old fat guy who was not attractive in the least. He had two HB’s with him. We were all just like WTF how does this guy have these girls. Well p4nzer decides to go find out. He opens the guy and finds out that the guy is married to the blonde. Wow man way to go. He must have been the greatest PUA or all time haha or just rich. The other one who had a phenomenal ass JP opened and it fizzled.

At some point during this interaction I go open the seated 3 set again. I like to do this. I like to keep it cool so I can always reopen. Hell you are going to be there most of the night and they will most likely as well. So if you keep things on that level you can always reopen. So I go back over and tell the girl to be polite and introduce me to her friends. Keep in mind I still haven’t even introduced myself to this girl. Most would think this is retarded but it’s just my game. I never introduce unless they ask me my name. So the other girls are very receptive and they all start saying I am cute. I just play it off like they are saying the word celery or something. In fact I actually DLV myself here on purpose. I have noticed I have been doing that a ton lately. It turns out two of the girls have two kids each. This is insane as one of them has an extremely good body. The other one is a little heavy set so I can believe that. The third one is younger, better looking, and has no kids nor does she want any. What sucks is ugg was all over me and I couldn’t break away to get the decent one. Ohh well maybe next time.

So we are starting to get ready to bounce from here and hit Finn for the last hour. I really don’t want to leave until they have opened another set. So we are in about the middle of the bar and here come two pretty good looking HB’s. P4nzer asks me what I would open with. I am very situational so I tell him. They are wearing these really nice dresses. I tell him to use a prom opener. It works like a charm. JP swoops in and wings and everything seems to be going very well. Not that I see any IOI’s but the body language seems to be receptive. After a few minutes of conversation for some reason both parties eject.

While they are in conversation a HBBlonde is dancing near me. This chick might be on drugs or something. She has been opened by every guy in this freaking place. She starts dancing very close to me which I take as proximity. She spins around and is right in front of me saying hello. She bangs her glass into mine on accident and of course I neg the shit out of her. Even while this is going on other dudes are coming up. I guess she just looks approachable or something. I comment on her tattoos asking her if she got them in prison. Here is the exact line. Notice how I compliment then neg.  I like your tattoos. Did you get them in prison?  She laughs at this. I really love negs. I get blown out from them every once in a while but for the most part I can tell they build attraction. Most guys just say shit like your beautiful or some other gay stuff so most women actually like negs. From here she rolled off. Still think she was smoking crack or something. We bounced as well.

So we get to Finn. We take separate cars and I arrive first. I know about 5 people inside I just have to locate them. Before I do anything I have to piss. As I am exiting the bathroom HBGamergirl who I told to lose my number on Saturday walks right up to me. Ohh damn I knew she went here on Mondays but I didn’t expect her to be here. Well as it turns out she is here with a date. We are talking standing front to front and she tells me he is right behind me. I turn around introduce myself shake his hand and turn right back around and start talking to her. Yes I blew this guy the fuck out. He leans over and asks her roommate who the fuck I am. She tells him ohh just some douche bag. So I am chatting her up while the date is right behind me. Keep in mind she has deleted my number out of her phone. But in truth she came there that night hoping I would show up. I tell her I will be coming over to her house later that night and she agrees. It is just insane how you can build up insane levels of attraction if you do the right things. I am still stunned by this. It turns out while this was going on her date left the venue. He was pissed to say the least and I feel sorry for him. Hey buddy come talk to me so I can turn you into a non homo. She ejects and her and her roommate head home.

As we were talking I notice a few friends over in the corner dancing. I head over there and bs with them. As I am doing this HBGamergirl and her roommate walk by. She just stares at me the whole time they are walking by. My friends turns to me and goes was it just me or was that girl eye fucking the shit out of you the whole time she walked by. It was pretty hilarious.

One of the guys wants to go meet some women. I can tell he probably doesn’t do very well with the ladies even though he is a good looking guy. I want to help him out so we roll off and start looking. At this point I run into p4nzer and somehow lose this other guy. Now it’s me and p4nzer who are on the prowl. I noticed a 4 set of hotties when I first walked in the place. I had to piss so bad I walked right by them. I did have time to make a face at the group when I walked by since one of the girls stuck her ass into me as I was walking by. A face like umm control your girl she is crazy in a joking way.

Well as we are walking by two of the girls are dancing all freaking on each other. My typical line is hey lets keep it PG-13. Almost every single time I have used this which is a ton girls are pretty receptive of this line. It is usually just a way for me to fuck with girls and have a good time. I usually say it and roll off. But this time I decide to add a line. After I open with that I ask if they are lesbians. Now I don’t remember exactly what happened right after this but for some reason one of the girls leaves. The other one stays and is very open to the conversation. Everything is going good and I of course throw out some crazy negs. I have never seen so many IOI’s in my entire life. She must have thrown out at least 8 within 3-5 minutes. It was nuts. Grabbing my arm, waving her hair with her hand, grabbing me some more, blah blah blah. I eventually ask how she knows her friends and she says they work together at a club. From here she is sketchy and it’s where I lose her. She doesn’t want to elaborate on the club job. Of course we all know she is a stripper but for some reason she is shy about this. I tell her how my ex was a dancer. She asks where and I say Men’s Club. This is a total lie by the way but I figured it would calm her down and let her realize I was ok that she was a stripper. But it had the complete opposite affect. Somehow I let the conversation die down or something and she went back to her friends. I turn to my wing and we chit chat for a bit about it. He was standing right there the whole time listening to the conversation. We both agreed that she was throwing off crazy IOI’s. He said he thinks she has A.D.D or something which I must agree. I have never seen anyone give that many IOI’s and then be non receptive. Unless they were all fake ass stripper IOI’s which sits in my head as a possibility.

From here I just hang back with some friends who I haven’t seen in a while. One is a good looking guy who is actually opening? Hrmm I haven’t really seen him do that. And of course he opens some of the hottest chicks in the joint. Since he got blown out I wanted so bad to walk up to his target and open her just to see what would happen. Her coat provided the perfect neg so I think I could have opened pretty well. He opened her with some total AFC your so beautiful comment. I know part of me just didn’t want to do it in case it would piss him off but for the most part I chickened out. Yes she was that hot. How homo does that sound? That is why I like writing this on paper. It is a way of me calling myself out.

At closing time 3 of my friends wanted to head back over to their place and continue drinking. I called them homos and told them I was going to go get laid. Off to HBGamergirls house I went.