I see some of the other guys in the field. I observe what they do to have success. The truth is I am not sure many are having the kind of success I am. I am not trying to toot my own horn by any means. I think when it comes down to it there are some many out there that just smoke me. In fact I am calling myself out right now. I pretty much suck ass at this.
I really shouldn’t even be rambling on right now. I am so freaking tired and weak. I have maybe taken in 1200 calories today. I made the mistake of mixing cough medicine with alcohol and let’s just say my entire day has been ruined. I feel like a train wreck. I wish I could just fall asleep and start over tomorrow. I have tried so many times today and nothing. I feel asleep for a few minutes and bam my phone rings. I barely slept at all last night. Hell I even woke up at 5 am and started writing crap.
Here is the real reason I am writing this. This is my open declaration to myself to revamp my game. You know how when Tiger Woods was on top and he decided to completely redo his swing? People thought he was crazy. But now he is just about unbeatable. I guess that is my best analogy I can come up with. I am no where near his level by any means but I want to change my game. Even as I am writing this my brain is questioning my philosophy on this matter.
Here are two texts I got in the last 24 hours.
Back story: This girl was a little too blah for me in bed. She also got super clingy so I started blowing her off. She has to this day not given it up. She has sent other texts to me like let’s go to the sex shop and buy toys blah blah.
HBNYEGirl: Alright so you and I have something to resolve. I’m not ok w/goin down as the sexy chick that didn’t give it up in bed. It still bugs me. We’re gonna have to hook up one last time so I can do my thing and do what I should have just done in the first place. But I’m not cool letting my rep go down like that.
NBSNL: I will beat you at something and I think it might be pool sorry. Then we are going to go back to your place and I am going to have my way with you.
She then goes on to say that she doesn’t want to bet money this time but she will bet: If I win I can do whatever I want sexually with her. And she means anything. I love freaks.
This is just the tip of the iceberg. I have not slept alone in…in I can’t even remember the last time. Either my bed has been occupied or I have been at someone else’s house. Since I feel like shit I have already blown off invitations for this evening. This will be the first time in forever. So why in the world do I want to change something that is clearly working?
Here is why. I randomly open a lot of sets if I am feeling good. I run a weird game depending on the bar we are at. If it is a smaller place I have no problem posting up with a wing and just letting the girls come to us. Anything within proximity gets opened with a situational opener. I have no problem with this at all and I am not going to change this aspect of my game. What I am going to change is where I go from here. When I first got into this I was actually pretty good at keeping a conversation going. As of late it just seems like I can’t spit two words. I know this isn’t the truth but it just feels like it right now. I want to get good at carrying on a lengthy conversation with these girls. The reason is I think I lose so many potentially good sets because I let the conversation die down really quick. I mean you have the balls to open. It opens wide open and then umm you sit there like a tool and let it fall apart. That just seems so counter productive.
I have enough girls in my arsenal right now that I shouldn’t be so worried about getting new ones. I mean it is fun the chase and all of getting a girl. I also want to keep my numbers for the year going so my usual wing doesn’t out pace me. I think for now however in the long run this is far more important. I am just so sick of not being able to instantly go into some good conversation. Lately I have just been sticking really bad it seems. I think if I can work this kink out some crazy number like 6-10 in one month is not out of the question.
Now I have to figure out how to get good at talking to these women again. I used to be pretty damn good at it. I have ran some decent sets lately but so many of the others are just bugging the hell out of me. It is almost as if my brain isn’t working. Hell I need a vacation. A vacation really from everything. Maybe I should just bury myself in work again and take my mind off this for a while. LMAO just got a third booty call of the evening while writing this. Geeze this is so hard to get away from. Fuck \lsjdfljsd
HB: Promise me you will do you know what in my mouth.
Umm yah my bed will be occupied this evening yet again.