Alright so I really didn’t have much interest in going out last night to sarge. My phone starts blowing up with people wanting to go so I decide it is a good idea. Well on top of this the girl from the honesty post seems to be alright with everything now. She ends up texting me earlier in the day and everything is cool. So I head out and get to Finn. Well I was going to wear my Fedora since it seems to really help and the door guys say no pimp hats. WTF dude this is not a pimp hat it’s a fedora. Nope I have to take it back to the car and go in with my hair looking like shit. Only good part of this is the door guys seem to know me now. When I reentered the bar later in the night they didn’t even ID me but they ided the girl I was with.

Alright so we show up and everything is cool. I chill on the patio with some friends. One of the guys there got hit on by a couple girls earlier in the day by a couple girls so they were there as well. I would give one a HB7 rating and the other a HB6. My bud was with the HB7 so I started fucking with the HB6 for the fun of it. She just isn’t my type and I have no interest in getting with anything under a 7. So I start running some of the tightest game on her and she is surely wet by this point. I later open the HB7 and run some tight game on her and I could tell she was into it. She later approached me in the evening when I was alone but I had to shoo her away as I just don’t do that to my friends. I know that sounds contradictory and everything but the game I ran was not to escalate or anything like that. It was really just fucking with her but she ate it up. I was trying to just have fun but her reactions were showing she was into it. I dropped it quick and left.

Overall the night went well and I opened some decent sets. Nothing great came of any of it but it was good practice none the less. One of the sets worked with my ex so I had to eject quickly from that (I didn’t know them). I just don’t need anything getting back to her and dealing with it. This sucks because one of the girls was very attractive and really my type. On top of this I could tell she was into me. So we eject and go outside back to our friends. As we are sitting there we notice girl from Honesty post pull up. I let her and her friend come in without them noticing us. I end up later approaching her and everything is cool. It just so turns out that my buddy is banging her roommate and they are acting so giddy hugging kissing and being overall annoying. Well she can’t stand this and is sending me texts and stuff. I pretty much ignore this chick for the most part and go talk to other people. After a while I go over to them and keep her company. After about 3 minutes I tell her hey lets go out to my car and fuck. It is just insane but she instantly agrees to this proposal and off we go. The cool thing is my car is on the end and people are everywhere coming and going from the venue. Yah I guess I am a little freak and think this is cool. So we are messing around and I tell her to blow me. She actually agrees even though she says she only does this for boyfriends. Whatever girl you need to get past that. So she blows me for a while and is actually really good. I would prefer her to just keep going but she stops and gets on top. She starts going at it and everything is great. We finish up and head back in to the bar.

We get back into the bar and everything is pretty boring. I just don’t like having a girl I know there. It just seems odd to me. So we set up the logistics and everyone bounces. This girl is pretty cool and I didn’t expect her to have a freakish side to her and be alright with going to the car. The next day this girl asks me what I am doing for Valentines Day. I let her know nothing. I had made a comment before that hopefully I would be sleeping with three women. She brought that up again. She said she has had two guys already ask her out. I tell her she should go out with guy number 2 and she is like nah I want to hang with someone else hinting she wants to hang with me. Nah go out with the other guy. He will buy you flowers, chocolates, and take you to a nice dinner.

You know what they say about honesty, It’s the best policy. Is it really? Well I like to think so. Just today I was at Central Market. I have no skill in cooking so I go there and buy the pre-cooked food they have. While it is a little pricey it is very good. So I get some of the apricot chicken salad. It is very good and I highly recommend it. Now this stuff is about $11.00 a lb and I order a pound. I notice she puts a price on there of like 5 bucks. I let her know that she must of rung this up incorrect. This girl was probably like wtf why not just get it cheaper. She thanked me and put the correct price on there. I let her know that I wasn’t going to let 7 bucks rest on my conscience. I remember back when I was 10 years old or so and something similar happened. I was at the food court and gave the guy a 10 dollar bill to buy something. My change should have been around 5 dollars but instead he gave me back 15 thinking I gave him a 20. I pocketed the extra money and thought it was my lucky day or something. Looking back of course I wish I would have spoken up and told the guy hey buddy you screwed up here is the money. I mean think about it. At the end of the shift his manager lets him know his draw is 10 dollars short. He is either called a thief or he has to cover the cash himself. How shitty is that. I don’t want to be the person who causes someone else misery.

Alright so on to my point that makes the most sense for this entry. Every time I start hanging out with a girl I am over the top honest. If they ask me any question I just answer it with 100% honesty. On top of this I also let them know what I am about. I have no interest in a relationship. I also let them know that I am seeing other people. I might let this slip indirectly. Like they ask me what I am doing tomorrow. Ohh I am going out with so and so to eat dinner. Ohh yah ok well call me when you are done. Now they know that I am seeing other people. If they are ok with this fact then everything is great. If they aren’t they can let me know right there and off I go.

So this exact scenario just happened over the last few days. I was straight up with this girl. I told her everything just like the above. She knew what I was about. Hell I even told her that I went out all the time to meet women. I told her I was going out with another girl. I even hung out with her the night I told her I was going out with another girl. She knew everything. Then we finally slept together. After sex she asks me how many other girls I was sleeping with. I was straight up with her and she pretty much freaked out. Umm WTF why not ask that question before hand if you are going to get upset by it.

Alright so here I am typing this instead of fucking her again. She was pretty fun in bed too which sucks. I mean I highly doubt I will sleep with her again. She was loud and I could tell multiple times with her it would get way better. So the ultimate question needs to be asked at this point. Do I regret my honesty? The answer is simple. Not at all. If I had to do it over again I would do the exact same thing. Not a word would differ. I try to be completely honest with these girls up front. If they choose to turn a blind eye to the facts that is their choice. After she got upset I even brought this up with her. I told her hey I told you all of this beforehand. She answered that she thought I was just kidding about all of it. Wow really that is just crazy you thought that.

So there we have it. All of this just went down in the past few hours. This is the only girl I have slept with that hasn’t blown me. That feels really weird to me. I hope I have the opportunity to change that fact. Hahha hilarious that I am dwelling on that part of it. Its odd how I just touched on this in my last post and here it is sorta biting me in my ass. On top of this even with me saying all of this the girls seem to still get clingy. Ohh well maybe I will learn my lesson and start lying to these girls. I doubt it. It’s just not my style.

Alright I am sitting here writing this to myself. I have in the past tried so many times to gain weight. I have made pathetic attempts at this. I am a hard gainer. That basically means I am a skinny guy and it is very difficult for me to gain weight. The truth is I make a half ass attempt at it and always fail.

I have been working out lately and notice my body cutting up a little. It’s nice to see some results. What I really want to see though is some weight gain. I am 6′ Tall and weigh about 150lbs. Ideally I would like to add about 20 lbs. Realistically I would like to add 10 lbs before my birthday. That is just under 3 months away. This goal is probably unattainable but I just want to see if I exercise right and eat property what is achievable. I’ve been saying I want to gain those 10lbs since January and I’m sure I have gained zero. If I don’t take in a crazy amount of calories every day and I mean every single day I don’t gain shit. Even if I did gain a few pounds if I don’t keep the calorie intake up I immediately lose the weight.

So I am writing this so when I look back at this entry I can either be proud of myself or really pissed. I mean you get one shot to live so if you want something get it. I have pretty good success with women right now. If I added 20 lbs of muscle it would be insane. On top of this my confidence would be through the roof and that is what would really shine.

So don’t be a homo work your ass off and do whatever it takes.

Well I haven’t written much lately so I figured I would jot some stuff down. It will be very easy to forget everything that has happened in the last few days. I wish I could write every day as to how my day elapsed. That would be pretty cool to someday come back and read it. I don’t even know where to pick up and start.

To begin I turned down a booty call last night. It isn’t the first time I have done this lately. I thought it was when it happened but I remembered about NYE girl. She is still blowing my phone up trying to get things going again. I mean she has left me some racy text messages. I’m not sure why I get bored of these girls and don’t want to sleep with them anymore. It is very weird. I mean I can remember back when I didn’t have this lifestyle thinking how cool it must be. In actuality so far it’s not that cool. I have an arsenal of girls I can sleep with right now. My phone is blowing up. I am meeting up with multiple girls in one day. I Still haven’t fucked more than one in 24 hours but this is soon to end. I could have done this already but chose not too since I ended things with certain FB’s in the past. I just don’t have it in me to hurt these girls. I think even though I try to be an asshole to these girls they still want something more than sex. I also think I probably come off more as a boyfriend type then a FB type. I tell these girls straight up before anything happens that I have absofuckinglutley no interest in a relationship. I even tell them I am going out all the time to meet women. Ohh well they don’t care they still end up sleeping with me. It’s almost like I am pulling some sort of reverse psychology on their asses or something. Their brains get warped into thinking some way and they don’t give two shits. It is still baffling me.

I have been thinking about my ex quite a bit lately. Not so much in that she was badass or anything. More in that I would actually like to have that bond and relationship again with someone. I know deep down that is what I am about. Hell I would have had this lifestyle in the past if that is what I really wanted. I choose to go a different way with my life and always wondered what this would be like. Thinking man I bet that is so badass that is what I want. The truth is this gets kinda old quick. Now don’t get me wrong I will continue this way of life until Mrs. Right walks into my life. I am having a badass time I think like anything you always feel the other side of the fence is greener. It doesn’t matter what you are doing that pasture just looks beautiful.

A lot of stuff has been crossing my mind that I need to find the answers to. If I can remember them long enough to jot them down I will write about them. The questions are all about women and picking them up. At least in my head that is what they are about. I have seen some people talk about them but me being stubborn I have to figure them out myself. For example on a day2 do you treat a HB9 differently then you would a HB7? You know questions like that. The truth is I haven’t even had the opportunity to date a HB9 so I can’t answer that. But I can tell you I am on my way to that level of HBness.
I guarantee I will be dating a HB9 in the near future. Well at least fucking her haha.

I was messing around with a girl last night. I have never slept with her before. I feel like I could have slept with her last night. We were messing around but not really escalating it that far. I would have but I didn’t get the right signs from her. In retrospect I know it was because I was suppose to meet up with another girl at 2AM. As I was leaving her house she grabbed my dick. I’m like hey don’t do that unless you want to get fucked. She said I just wanted a preview. Alright cool cya. She says alright cya tomorrow. I get woken up by a text from her the next morning that says: Naked Tonight. Umm alright I’m just gonna go ahead and take that as you want to get fucked this evening. So I get home and text 2AM girl. She is very responsive and wants me to come eat with them at Cafe Brazil. Nah that just isn’t gonna happen. See what I mean. If I had gone up there something would have happened. I just didn’t even want to try it was too much work. After this I pass out. I did get woken up at 3AM by Israel girl but I didn’t even answer the phone. She was drunk I’m sure and wanted to fuck but I just wasn’t in it. Plus I was so tired I even think I might have been dreaming when she called and just thought it was part of my dream. I was out of it.

I don’t know why I just don’t take a night off. This is geeze I don’t know 10 days in a row I have either gone out or gone over to a girls house. It is amazing how much this wears you out. And here we are again I already have plans to go over to HBgrabsdick’s house here in a few minutes. I know what it is. Man it is the thrill of getting with another girl. How fucked up is that. After I sleep with these two new girls I know I am going to want to repeat the process. Go out. Meet women. Text them. Call them. Meet up with them. Sleep with them. Sleep with them a few more times. Get Bored. Repeat. Hrmm that is gay I need to find some high caliper totally badass women that I want to sleep with every day. Isn’t that the ultimate goal? Well sort of I guess one of them.

That is all I have to say. I don’t think I touched on much of what actually happened this last week. There is some cool shit that I need to write about. Some stuff that will help me in the future with meeting women. I had a night out where my negging was both hilarious and successful. I must write a report on that as that is my favorite part of this game. I must eat, take a shower and head out.

I am so freaking tired. I have been out 8 nights in a row. The first 6 were made up of sarging. The last two have been hanging out with women. I am so tired in my sleep last night I dreamed I was sleeping. I also dreamed I was still in school and screwing up. Forgetting about tests, homework, falling asleep at my desk, etc. This is clearly a sign I think I am not balancing my social life with my responsibilities. There is no doubt this is definitely the case. My last dream was so messed up. It also involved me sleeping. I was out with a group of guys prob 8 of us. We went to some restaurant/bar for a buddies birthday. After dinner they all went around the bar and started meeting all sorts of beautiful women. Yep you guessed it I fell asleep at the table and slept right through it all. At some late point a friend came up to me and woke me up. I couldn’t believe I had fallen asleep. I was out of it.

There is a fine line with balancing all of this. It’s just you go out and meet some women. The next logical step is to actually hang out with these girls. Well that takes a lot of time. This is the first Friday in about 6 weeks that I really don’t want to go out. I mainly just want to sit at home and do nothing. I don’t even want to meet up with any of the girls I know and hang out. That is how tired I am. Now of course people are already trying to make plans with me this evening. I know I am going to get talked into doing something. Not that I am falling prey to peer pressure it’s mainly deep down I know I want to go do something. So sure enough 10PM will roll around and I’m sure I will be off to some venue. I will have to turn a 180 and prepare for what lies ahead. I mean if I am not going to have a good time then I shouldn’t go out. That means I have to mentally prepare myself to have a good time. Hopefully I will have some awesome FR to write about.