For the past 6 or 7 years my mood has been greatly affected by my income. I have never had the traditional income that most have. I have never received a pay check. Well I did when I was way younger and had your typical teenage jobs. But besides that my income was always dictated by how well one or more of my businesses did. So as you can imagine my income would fluctuate radically from week to week and month to month. If I had a bad month I would be in a shitty mood. If I had a good month well I was on cloud nine and super happy. Yes I agree that is a fucked up way to be. In fact I have to live with it so as you can imagine I hate it. Even to this day I would still be affected in this same manner. The only difference is I go months now without a payday so I am used to it. I now look at my overall year and know it will be decent so I don’t worry about it too much.
But this leads me to a new mood swinger. And that my friends is women. I hate that I am writing that right now. I hate that they have some sort of power over me. But the truth is if I am not having success with women my mood tends to swing into the bad direction. So if you just read my previous post you know what I am referring to. I have number closed some extremely attractive women lately. I mean some of them are girls I would consider actually dating for real. They are the type that you walk into the room with them on your arm and the whole room turns and is jealous. Those types of girls. I clearly did something right when I met them. They were somehow attracted to me even if it was for brief moment. But then I try to start a conversation with them and they are dead. Or they respond only briefly never to respond again. These are all correct numbers. If I call and get their voicemail it is them.
What I hate is the truth. The truth is for whatever reason they gave me their number. Maybe they were tipsy. Maybe I attracted them enough to give me their number but then they realized wait a minute why the fuck did I give him my number? Then when you try to call them they just sit there saying I have no interest in talking to this guy.
I know this happens. I know I do it. If a girl calls me that I am not into I just sit there saying nah I am not going to respond to that text. Nah I am not going to return that phone call. So you can rest assured that they do the same thing. In fact they get hit on so many times a day they of course do this on a regular basis. Now the fact that they gave you their number though drives you crazy. Why not give a bogus number? Or just say no I am not giving you my number. That is the thing that drives us nuts. Haha maybe they do it on purpose just to fuck with us. I wouldn’t doubt it.