As of late I have been very lazy. Even today I didn’t actually get up and do anything until about 3 PM. I stayed the night over at a girl’s house and got home around 11 AM. Then started doing some work but noon rolled around and it was time for a nap. I finally got up around 2 and started putting myself together. Lately I just can’t function very well until the late afternoon creeps up. I really have no idea why this is. It is almost as if I am in some sort of mini depression or something. Aside from the possibility of a depression I know part of it is this stupid house I am remodeling. I just dread having to go over there and do any work on it.
Last year I started off working for 6 months non stop. I mean seriously I highly doubt I even took 5 days off during that time. And these were 10-12 hour days working my ass off. Since then I have subbed out almost all of the work on the rehabs I have done. This has really made me a lazy person when it comes to having to do rehab work. On my personal house though I have done almost every single bit of the work. And it has been the most labor intensive project to date. I have removed so much stuff from this house I’ve filled up Eight 30 yard dumpsters. If you don’t know how big that dumpster is it is very large. The tonnage has been probably close to 60 tons. That is just ridiculous.
So anyways I make myself go over there today and get some work done. I am at the stage right before you texture. A couple days ago I go up to the upstairs bathroom and rip the toilet out. When I get it out I notice the subfloor has rotted out. Great just another extra expense. But what really sucks is I have no choice but to rip the vanity out as well. A subfloor is maybe $40 but a vanity could easily cost upwards of $500. Awesome. So I rip that out and spend about a day making this room ready for texture.
Then today I go into the downstairs bathroom and just say you know what. This is the only bathroom I haven’t gutted now so guess what. Yep this room is going to be gutted as well. It just wouldn’t make sense to have one room in the entire house that wasn’t gutted. So I start messing with tearing everything out of here which leads to about 5 hours of work and I am not even done prepping the walls. I probably have another 5 hours of work tomorrow since I have quite a bit of tape and bed work.
In the middle of all of this though I got some serious thinking in. My friend always questions how I can work without a radio. It is because I want to sit there and contemplate stuff all day long in my head. I want to be one with my thoughts. And today was perfect for that. I mean not a single noise could be heard.
What really had my mind’s attention today was why am I so good when I am tipsy? On Saturday night I remember Lion comparing me to Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hide. Making some comment about how I am so much better when I am drunk. I know it is the truth I just really hate that it is. I can’t remember exactly what he called me but it was something similar to that. I really want to change this fact. I want to be badass when I am sober.
So the first thing I thought of was tipsy me is very FRIENDLY and OUTGOING. What this means is I don’t necessarily discriminate on who I talk to. I will give you a perfect example. I remember back ohh I don’t know maybe January 4th of this year. I was at Finn and I was having a pretty good night. I was definitely being super social. Well this 8 group of girls is near me and they are having a bachlorette party. I walk right up to them and open the girl getting married. I stole her tiara and put it on. About half of the group was totally into me at this point. The other half in the back could see everything going on as well. Now nothing happened with anyone in this group but guess what happens next. A blonde who could clearly see this entire interaction going on proximities me. When I am done with the group I immediately open her and eventually close her.
The next thing I realized was that tipsy me pays absolutely no attention to the OUTCOME. I will explain this just incase you have no idea what I mean. If you are not reliant on what the outcome may be you typically will do better. Your demeanor just works better for you. Now of course there should always be the intention of closing in some manner. But if you know that you have no worries if nothing comes of the set then you win. Sober me would look at a 2 set of hotties and think all sorts of crazy thoughts. For example I might say to myself well I really don’t want to open them because I come here a lot and I might see them again. Or I might think man I don’t know I’m just not feeling it and I don’t think I can get them. Yeah I think retarded shit like that when I am sober. It is hard to do but remember you are the mother fucking prize. You are the most badass person on the planet. These girls are nothing. If you can internalize that statement right there you are already at least 7.23432% better at this game.
I really need to bring either a recorder with me or start jotting down notes. I think about stuff all day while I’m working and driving. I know I had other things to mention about sober vs. tipsy me. Some day I need to just write out an entire post comparing the two instead of breaking them down in different posts. Ohh well for now this is it. I know there are other things that differ and when I remember them I will surely write about them.