I can’t believe I have been so busy I haven’t posted one freaking time in over two weeks. I mean it’s awesome I am this busy but I really should make time to post. I guess maybe I run out of stuff to talk about.
So as you remember my ex found me on myspace and messaged me. We went back and forth and she ended up calling me. I turned down the lunch she proposed and rescheduled for a week later. So she calls me the Monday before to confirm. We end up having a pretty good conversation on the phone. I eventually end the conversation as I have work to do. The next day I am running late for the lunch and let her know. She tells me on the phone she figures I am going to stand her up. Bam right there my frame is already stronger than hers. I know this lunch will go well. I of course assure her that I would never do that. Sure I am an asshole but that would just be messed up.
So I am almost to the sushi place and thoughts start racing through my brain. The main one is I wonder if when I see her if I will have this huge ass grin on my face. The grin you have when you are really happy to see someone. I start walking towards her car and she gets out. All of the sudden all I can see is this crazy blonde hair. She had told me on myspace that she was dying her hair blonde. I don’t have a grin on my face I have a look of horror. It just looks terrible. I hate it. You could put two girls next to each other. They look identical in every single way but hair color. One is blonde and one is brunette. I would rate the blonde probably at least one or two levels below the brunette. So as you can imagine I am looking at her and saying hrmm….this just doesn’t work. And yes I neg the shit out of her about the blonde hair not once…but twice.
We walk inside and the conversation is flowing nicely. We catch up in the normal manner talking about family and stuff like that. We went out for 3 years so of course we were close with each others families. Eventually we talk about us. I mean everything is very casual and it never gets serious. I made sure not to take it to that level. But she wants to. She wants closure it would seem. See she thinks I am angry and I have hatred towards her since she broke up with me. The thing is I have gotten past all of that long ago. I have absolutely zero anger towards her. I want nothing but the best for her. She goes on telling me how much hatred she has for me. When these words fall from her lips I instantly know she is not over me. Now there is no way she would admit this but lets face it if you have that much anger you have not let go.
The sushi place we go to closes from 4-5 so they can have dinner themselves. This conversation could have easily lasted way longer. Looking back though I know it was a blessing in disguise. I think it was good that our meeting only lasted about an hour and we parted ways.
Later that night I started thinking about her. The thought going through my head was you know what…I would not mind going out with her sometime. I do my best talking when I am driving so on the way to Home Depot that night I say fuck it and call her. She instantly answers her phone and is very receptive to a conversation. I tell her how her and I should hang out sometime. She readily agrees to the idea. Of course she questions why I want to hang out with her and I just say because I want to. Clearly this is a good enough response for her. I tell her that me and some friends will be going out Friday and she should come. Just to build a bit of a time line this lunch and phone call happened Tuesday April 8th. She won’t confirm that she will come out Friday but says there is a 60% chance of it. Of course my thought is there might be another guy in the picture who might be worthy of her time.