As planned I meet up with the ex. She was supposed to come over but with her new little dog she doesn’t want to leave it alone. So I head over there. On the way there I am thinking how I am just going to caveman her when I walk in the door and fuck her right there. Sure enough I open the door and walk right past her and throw my shoes off. I then turn around and as she is closing the door I grab her and throw her up against the door. We start making out and her clothes fall to the floor. I pick her up and take her to her room and throw her on the bed. But that bastard little dog is asleep on the bed and proceeds to cockblock me. We then get into some conversation and she asks me how many girls I have slept with since we broke up. I have nothing to hide and I don’t lie so I tell her the true number of 7. She is literally floored by this answer. But no more than 5 minutes later I am on top of her and we are going at it. So odd. We are both so freaking sore. She wants to know where I am going to cum and I tell her in her mouth. She doesn’t say a word she just basically nods. She gets on top and starts going crazy but after about 5 minutes she stops and says she can’t take it anymore. I can feel it too and I am hurting. She finishes me with her mouth and swallows. Good girl.
We head up to Blockbuster and rent some movies. Both of us were Saw fans but the weird thing is neither of us saw Saw IV while we were broken up. We watched all the others together. I wonder if that in the back of our heads had something to do with it. On some subconscious level we didn’t want to see the movie because we weren’t together. Who knows. So we rent it and head back to her place. We throw it in and start watching it.
I can tell I have somehow gamed this perfectly. The whole time we have been talking I have probably done everything perfect. I can tell she wants us to get back together. Maybe I am wrong in this assessment but I don’t think so. I think if I suggested it she would go along with the idea. I told her I want us to date again but not like we used to. She knows I see other girls and she doesn’t like the idea that I sleep with other people. I told her I am not going to stop doing that. She said well then we aren’t going to sleep together again. We can hang out but that won’t happen if you are sleeping with other girls. It will be interesting to see how this moves forward. If she actually follows through on that or just says fuck it.
Another thing I worry about is that since I have slept with so many people if she will be like you know what fuck him. If he is going to do it then so am I. I could see her doing that now that she knows I have slept with other people. How naive of her to know I have dated other girls and I wouldn’t have slept with them. So silly.
I know I could see myself getting back together with her. So many things feel right about it. But my other side kicks in and doesn’t want it. I see so many beautiful women that I need to talk to. I need to get it out of my system if that is possible. I want to be with a girl and have absolutely zero desire to be with anyone else. Who knows if that is achievable it probably isn’t. I guess I just have more oats to sow.
It is so nice to know if I wanted to back I can have her. What an excellent feeling.