Of all people I thought she could handle it. She used to be so cool about this sort of thing. I remember when we were going out early in our relationship and she was just like I don’t care if you are sleeping with other people. We aren’t going out so why should I care. Or the time she went out of town for a week and was alright with the idea of me sleeping with another girl. Or all the times we would talk about having a threesome and she was so open to the idea.
Now things are different though. She just can’t handle the fact that I am sleeping with other girls. She just left my house balling her eyes out. I wish I could just lie to her and tell her I will stop living this lifestyle. It is a flaw I have. I know this entire harem I have going on right now will blow up in my face. I felt for a while that HBgamergirl was going to take off but she still hasn’t. I hear all the time from her that she can’t stand it but she sticks around. She is going to be so happy when she hears the Ex has left. Who cares though. All I care about is the Ex. None of these other girls mean anything to me.
A huge part of me wants to just stop this lifestyle and get back with the Ex. I am still in love with her. I was over her but when we started talking again the feelings erupted all over. I know if I stop this lifestyle I will crave it. I want to be to the point where I hate this lifestyle and just want one girl. There is a good chance I am making the hugest mistake of my life right now. I should call her up and just get back together with her. This might end up being the biggest regret of my life. What will I regret more? Losing her forever? Or looking back on my life and wishing I had continued this lifestyle. I would wager it is losing her.
Whoah Whoah Whoah Hold the presses. So as I am writing this up she gives me a call. We start to talk and everything is going great all the sudden. The conversation ends after a while and she is all the sudden back to being ok. In fact not only are things ok I have talked her into stopping by in the morning and having some fun. Wow it is amazing how girls flip flop their emotions so quick. Do you ever wonder why so many people recommend taking a girl on an emotional roller coaster ride when you are gaming them? This is a perfect example right here. Think how well it would work if you did this to a girl you just met.
So her newest rule is that she will hang out with me once a week but no sex. Hrmm she has said no sex constantly over the last few weeks but keeps giving in. In fact not only does she give in she is usually the one jumping me. I love her sex drive. I hope she at least sticks with the once a week. I don’t want her out of my life completely. If that was the case I would have rather us never started talking again. It would be much easier to handle.