I don’t know what it is lately. Maybe a combination of working insane hours 7 days a week, and the fact that my ex is in my life but I have not thrown much game out lately. I will go out now and really just want to chill with the boys and have no intention of trying to scam on girls. I think subconsciously I am not wanting to game because I am ok with getting back with my ex.
The truth is I could give all this up tomorrow and run off to Vegas and get married to her and lead an amazing life. Isn’t that the entire point of all this? To find the perfect or near perfect girl and settle down. I know for me that is what it is ultimately about.
I’m sort of at a crossroads right now. I can roll the dice and string her along for as long as possible while still going out and living this crazy lifestyle. Or I can just wash it all away and settle down with her. If I do take the chance of stringing her along until I want to settle down with her I run the risk that she will get sick of it and leave. There is a high probability that if this happens I will have huge regrets. She is probably the perfect girl for me.
I guess that is the beauty of life. You are constantly having to face hard decisions like these. You may or may not choose the correct option. Maybe there isn’t a correct option. I can tell you this though. Each option has an outcome. So no matter which one you choose life goes on. Good or bad it is up to you.