Have you ever sat down and pictured what you want your life to be. I know you have. I know I have. I wonder how many people actually end up living that life. I bet the number is extremely small. Plus what you want now probably changes all the time to some extreme.
I think I know what I want. Hahha Scratch that. I clearly have no idea what I want.
The ex called yesterday afternoon. She told me that she is deleting my number out of her phone. She says she is calling me way too much and it is annoying me. She says I can call her if I want and she will be available. I feel really bad about this. For whatever reason I am just not ready to settle down with her. I have something in my head that tells me I must remain single for now.
I can picture it though. I can picture driving to her house and sweeping her off her feet. I can picture the look on her parents face when I show up. See they don’t approve of me for some strange reason. Hell maybe they wouldn’t approve of anyone for their daughter. I can picture myself proclaiming my love and being with her forever. I just don’t picture that happening now. It is at some time in the future. I feel like it will take place by year’s end but even that I don’t know for sure.