I have so much to write about and yet what lingers most is her. The thought of which I cannot escape. My journey is quickly coming to an end. It is close. I have almost reached the pinnacle of this game. When I get there I hope she is waiting. If she isn’t I will have no one to blame but myself. I must continue this path though for if I don’t something worse will linger. The thought of what if.
I still on occasion will question this path. What is the point. It is simple really. The point is to master what I started. Most people in life never follow through. We are all guilty of it whether big or small. I still have a few goals that I would like to achieve. Knowing I have not hit the top would bother me in years to come. I can’t reach it with her so I must do it alone. I must be without the girl I am in love with until I finish.
I do believe she is the one. I have met so many girls this year and none of them measure up. I mean not even close. Her look, her smile, her eyes, her kiss, her attitude, her goals, her values, her everything. She is everything I could imagine I would want in a wife. Tears come to my eyes just thinking about what we would have together. Someday I will show up at her house and drop a book off. It will be the book of this journey I am on. Some of the things inside will be hard for her to read but it will be needed. It will be what she will need to understand where I am at. Where I have been. And where I must go in order to find my way back to her.
I relish the thought of this day. I can’t wait. I actually yearn for it. I want this life to be over and the life I am meant to live to arrive. I hope it is a short distance from this current existence. While I have had so much fun on this path I am ready for a change. I am ready for what I am supposed to do. Be with her!