Archive for September, 2008

What the Fuck…

Wednesday, September 24th, 2008

Sometimes you just gotta say it. You have to be willing to utter those words and follow through with actions. You can do it in all regards to life. What it really means is taking a chance.

Think about life for a minute. More importantly think about your life. Do you ever take chances? Or do you just sit by and let life pass you by while you live a boring mundane life? I couldn’t even imagine not taking chances from time to time. It seems like the essence of life. Otherwise you are sitting around grinding it out day by day.

Who the fuck wants to do that!

Yeah I know some people really don’t have a chance. They have no choice but to live that mundane life just living day to day hour to hour doing what must be done. But most of us have a choice. We can do whatever the fuck we want within reason of course.

I wouldn’t be half of what I am today if I didn’t at least roll my sleeves up and take a chance every now and then. Now of course I like to think my chances were calculated risks but where they really? Yeah they were. I like to think long and hard before I do anything that could have huge adverse affects on me or my family. But think about how many little chances you can take in life that in the grand scheme of things will have almost none or zero affect on your life or those around you. The fact is you are probably going to face these small little dimples in life on a daily occurrence. But just think how sweet of an outcome could come from some of these little so called risks.

The Edge…

Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008

I used to wonder about the boyfriend and the guy who she just wants to fuck. See I always envisioned myself as the boyfriend. I think most people look at me and say ohh he looks like a nice guy. He is so clean cut. He doesn’t have any tattoos or piercings. Yeah he is a guy I would date but I wouldn’t go home with him tonight. I reserve that for a guy who has an edge to him.

So I started thinking well what the fuck does a guy like me do who wants to have an edge. I have a certain level of responsibility in my life. I need to be able to present myself in a professional manner from time to time. I really can’t go get my sleeve wrapped in tats or get all sorts of piercings. I need to look somewhat presentable.

I had been wondering alright so what can I do then. I decided a Mohawk might just do the job. It gives you that edgy look yet if I really needed to I could wear my hair down and look somewhat decent. The truth is I really don’t need to look that presentable I just want to. Everyone I make contact with in the business world works for me. They are getting paid by some service they provide me. Hell I have gone to closings in sandals and wind pants more times than not when everyone else is wearing suits. I do it most of the time just so I can chuckle under my breath and see their reactions. I just really don’t want to do anything permanent to get that edge. So a few weeks ago I decided you know what fuck it I am going to go ahead and get the hawk.

So far in the few times I have gone out I just can’t believe the results. They are undeniable. Truly I have never seen such success. Here is what I really like. Girls who normally might not give me the time of day are now into me. The same girls who would give me the time of day in the past are still into me. Basically what I am saying is I just opened the door to a whole new group of girls. My spectrum is larger than it ever has. And what is amazing is if I really need to clean up well I can still clean up and impress people if I need to. The fact is though I really don’t need to hide the hawk anywhere I go.

The Invisible Girl…

Thursday, September 18th, 2008

I can see her, she is surrounded in a haze. I know she is there however I just can’t make out who she truly is. What she really looks like. I am approaching her with foggy vision yet I know she is remarkable. I can sense it as if I have a sixth sense. There is just something about her. Something about that hazy aura she is giving off. It shimmers from her skin like it belongs.

Do you ever envision the girl of your dreams? Have you met her? Did you pass her on the sidewalk or in the grocery store? Who knows as doubtful as it is maybe you saw her at a bar or club. I wonder how many amazing women I pass by everyday just doing the mundane aspects of life.

It’s hilarious how you have no problem talking to girls out at the bar since it just seems acceptable there. Almost like you have an open invitation since you are out at a nightly venue. Yet during the day you are so shy. You feel like you are invading her space. You feel like if she rejects you it is some faux pas. If she rejects you what if you see her again will there be some sort of embarrassing feeling.

I remember back when I first started keeping this journal. One of the things I wrote about was regrets. Now sure we all pass many beautiful women almost every day. But still if you see that one you know the one I wrote about in the first paragraph shouldn’t you do everything in your power to talk to her. I mean even if you look like a jackass wouldn’t that be better than walking about cursing yourself for not saying anything.

I don’t recall seeing the girl in the first paragraph, at least not in real life. Who knows maybe she only exists in my head. I seem to think she is out there though. I want to meet her. I want to see her.

Where is she…

Shubalyhowsumnumchangtoesawchaflang…

Wednesday, September 17th, 2008

Alright so that title is pronounced: Shoe-Ba-Li-How-Sum-Num-Chang-Toe-Saw-Ka-Flang. And it means: Welcome to ATT how may I help you. It was from some commercial about 18 years ago that I somehow remembered. I think it was Swahelian.

I guess I need to touch on a few things so I can remember them down the road.

The first thing is I recently got a Mohawk. I have been rocking a Fohawk for a while now with excellent results. The Mohawk though is just phenomenal. I have never had so many people come up to me and say something to me. And I don’t even mean at night during the day it is insane as well. Now sure they are not all girls hitting on me but regardless it is a good feeling. I know I don’t look quite as good as I did with just the fohawk but I will definitely be rocking this look for a while.

I deleted every number out of my phone the other night. See I realized all these girls are worthless to me. I am going through some sort of alone phase I guess right now. For some reason I feel like I am reverting back to the old me. Maybe we can never escape who we truly are. Lately I have had no interest in talking to any girls. I am more inclined to just go out and hang out with my friends then try to meet new women. I say that now but man if I saw some amazing girl who was into me I am sure I would change my attitude.

I remember how I used to talk to a ton of girls. You know fuck around with them even though I knew I had no interest in them. Now I just go out and unfortunately have a horrible demeanor about myself. I can tell I am putting off a don’t fuck with me attitude. This is a really bad idea although for some reason I am alright with it at the current time.

I was out Saturday chilling with some friends when a girl approached me. She had to inspect the hawk. Can I touch it? I let her know sure it isn’t hard or anything. She makes some other comments and then compliments my tie as well. Any of night I would have had some snide remark to throw her off a little. Instead I just took it in stride and said thanks. This girl was not smoking hot maybe a HB7 with a very nice tight little body. Here is a girl hitting on me and I am just nonchalant about the whole thing. She then tells me I am rocking it tonight and turns around and walks off. I mean I basically just blew this girl off even though she was plenty good enough to hang out with.

So basically as much as I hate to say it my level of acceptable girls has just risen. This really limits who I will actually talk to. In my head I am a better package then I have ever been. In my head I am better looking than I have ever been. In my head I have more to offer than ever before. In my head I am wanted by all women.

The question is…is my game an even match for my ego???

Fool’s Mate…

Friday, September 5th, 2008

So I have been thinking about this for a while. Clearly this is in regards to SNL’s. I am about 99% sure that all SNL’s are Fool’s Mate.

Fool’s mate, also known as the “two-move checkmate,” is the quickest possible checkmate in the game of chess.

Fool’s mate, in regards to PU is when you meet a girl at a venue and sleep with her THAT night. Do not get this confused with going out on a date with a girl and sleeping with her that day. That is not a SNL.

I have been thinking about my handful of SNL’s. What happened during the time I spent with them. How it proceeded to becoming a SNL instead of just a solid number close. What allowed me to progress to the point of them coming over that night.

What I have come up with is clearly the set went extremely well. Each set consisted of at least 30 minutes to an hour+ of attraction and comfort. But more importantly:

1. Attraction was super high on both parties.
2. There was very little work needed on my end. As long as I was super confident, kept attraction very high, and ran cocky funny it seems like it was a cinch.
3. As long as I didn’t do something stupid the deal was done.
4. Figured out logistics. Yes this is your JOB 90%+ of the time. Yes you will occasionally run into a girl who handles it for you.
5. Kept suspense high by NOT making out in the Venue. I have never kissed one of my SNL’s until outside the venue, in my car, or at my house.

Great so I have some guidelines in place if I am going for a SNL. But why am I saying they are all Fool’s Mate? Well that is simple. I say it because I don’t believe I did anything magical to achieve these. I believe I was the right guy at the right place at the right time. Insert the right guy with any other decent guy in the venue. Yes you heard that right. I was interchangeable.

Consciously or subconsciously that girl set out to get laid that night. There are so many reasons why this is the case. She is a little whore and sleeps around with different guy every weekend. She just broke up with her boyfriend and wants to get over him by sleeping with another guy. She wants a revenge fuck on her cheating boyfriend. She hasn’t gotten laid in a while and is super horny. And so on and so forth.

I used to think I was some badass PUA when I pulled a SNL. It isn’t until recently that I realized this wasn’t the case at all. I had a few tools that maybe helped me but that is it. The nice thing is I had a couple SNL’s before the game so I can compare those to the ones now. They are both identical.

So are they all really Fool’s Mate? I mean come on can’t you be so good at game that you take some girl who had no intention of sleeping with a guy she just met and take her home? That is an excellent question. I like to believe that you can get that good at game. Maybe you can maybe you can’t.

Until I see otherwise they are all Fool’s Mate!