So it has been a while since I have been in the mood to actually “game”. For a while I was sort of seeing someone which led to at least 2 months of not gaming at all. Then after that these financial stresses have caused me to have little interest in it. But now I am feeling a little better in regards to gaming. Sure there have been a few cases where I did lay down some game and landed a few numbers. Hell I even went out with one of the girls. But overall the desire just hasn’t been there. I look back a year ago at how I was and it is just night and day different. I had a desire, a motivation that I am just lacking these days. With time all things change so I am not worried about the reasons. I know what they are and they make sense to me. But I would like to see some of that old desire show its head.

Looking back you can say I was successful in the field of pick up. I have had enough women to pass around to more than a few of you and still call what I have done a success. Still though I look back and say to myself was I successful. Did I ever find the success that I am capable of achieving? The answer to that question is very easy and can be summed up in one word. NO. I have never done a lot of things that I would like to do in this field. Now sure sometimes I ran textbook game and had success. But still to this day have I actually really done this: Open, attraction, qualify, comfort, seduce. I don’t remember one freaking time I did this. It is almost as if it just happened by accident if it happened at all. I can honestly say I can’t take credit for ever purposely doing it. I am sitting here admitting that I have never even done anything close to that.

Great so I just admitted that in my eyes I am a failure at this game. I have this road map right in front of me and I never once used it? How the fuck did I ever find success. Well that is a great question. So I will sit here and ponder that over for a second or two. The answer to that question is also very simple. There is NO road map to success. What? I thought there was. There is a certain framework that one can follow to increase their level of success. Or I should actually say you will increase your chances of success. Awesome so there is no sure fire way to success. How nice.

Back to the point I am trying to make. I am calling myself out on this. So I have seen some success in one form or fashion. I have a feeling why and that is fine. But what if I could put this so called framework to well…work. Would my success all the sudden increase to unheard of levels. Do I even want this level of success? Do I want to go back to shagging a lot of different women? I am almost thinking I really don’t want to. But what I would like to do is meet better and better quality women. So if this is what I must do in order to achieve those girls fine. I am ready to take this to the next level and see what is out there. The question remains though will I get my head space in the right place and dedicate myself to this endeavor.

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